formerly Diane's Addled Ramblings... the ramblings are still addled, just like before, and the URL is still the same...
it's just the title at the top of the page that's new

Monday, October 27, 2008

Where Is That Damned Bus?!

Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite. Or waiting around for Friday night or waiting perhaps for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil or a better break or a string of pearls or a pair of pants or a wig with curls or another chance. Everyone is just waiting... Dr. Seuss

Have you ever had one of those moments when you feel like you're just waiting for your life to change... or start? When you feel you're just biding time? When you realize (painfully) that you're not doing what you want to be doing? That you're not doing what you should be doing.. and I don't mean laundry or dishes or cleaning the garage... I mean your life's work (if only you knew what your life's work was supposed to be).

I feel like that often. I feel like that today. I'm really scared I'm going to wait for that bus we call 'life' for so long that I'm going to get bored and fall asleep at the bus stop and it's going to come and no one's going to wake me up (because what does anyone else care if I miss the bus?) and I AM going to miss it and then I'm going to find out that the next bus broke down five miles away and then they'll just suspend service to my stop and I'll be stuck. Right here. Where. I. AM. Now.

That would not be good.

It's time to revise my 'Bucket List', I think. I had one long before the movie came out but I got busy with laundry and dishes and cleaning the garage (well, not really that last bit... mainly because I don't have a garage) and doing work that is SO not my life's work, and I tucked it away (you know, so I could read it later... on the bus). After I saw the film, I dug it out... but I tucked it away again (the bus was taking a long time and I was busy with my non-life's work again).

But today, TODAY I'm going to write a new Bucket List (and if you don't know what a bucket list is, it's a list of things you want to do before you kick the bucket). I am. And THEN I'll finish the laundry and the dishes and my non-life's work. Damn it.


Mel said...

Words...from my mouth...onto your page-ish thing...the letters last week...baring of soul...and the sadness of the 8 yr old one...the epi-tome of going nowhere...time for a para-di-jim shift.

Protege said...

Dear Diane, I can assure you, that you are NOT one of those people that will fall asleep waiting for the bus. You can't even sleep on planes! How can you possibly fall asleep at the bus stop??;))
Now, I am sure, that when the right bus is approaching, you will be ready to get on it.
Besides, in case you would fall asleep, someone will be there to wake you up. I would.:)))

Heinous said...

Post that list so I can poke you and prod you until you get it all done. I'm all supportive like that.

hebba said...

Thoughts from Ghandi: "Healthy discontent is the prelude to progress" AND "Glory lies in the attempt to reach one's goal and not in reaching it". The fact that you are moving forward means you ARE doing your life's work. Don't be so hard on yourself

hautepocket said...

Sigh. I feel this exact same way. Right now I'm just wishing November away so that I can get this move over with, rather than just enjoying my time left here.

Good luck with the list, I'd be interested to read it if you feel like sharing. :)

Diane said...

Mel... I'm working on my para-di-jim... you working on yours?

Zuz... you're right! I'll totally be in line at McDonalds, waiting for my Diet Pepsi, when the bus arrives!

Heinous... I could use a little poking. Ummm... you know what I mean...

Hebba... Thanks! I hadn't thought of 'life's work' that way. Maybe I need to alter my view a bit!

HP... I hear your sigh, darlin'. At least try to enjoy the warm weather... I hear it's snowing in the midwest ;)

Red Cup Mom said...

Oooh, bucket list. Mmm. Mine is simple at the moment: make it to Hawaii for a week. Never been.

Be fun to read your list!

Anonymous said...

I know how you feel. Felt the same way for a long time now.
I feel as if I am stuck in a swamp and I just can't get out of it, so that I can get to the bus stop.
I cling to my idea of writing a movie script that gets turned into a movie. It's about all I have so I am trying to be positive about it.
I envy those that know exactly what they want from life AND stop at nothing to achieve it.
I'm trying to be one of those people. Not easy.

Anyway, honey, what about that web site you were going to develop? Your life coaching courses?
Get to it! (Says me who has no right to tell others to get on with things):-)

Diane said...

RCM... my list is slightly longer :). I might post some of it.

Col... I don't want to learn how to coach other people's lives until I can figure out my own. So I might do that when I'm 98. But I've figured a few things out. Stay tuned.

Miss Caught Up said...

Nice! I need a bucket list. Top on my priority is to try to hit the gym. Literally. Just go up to the gym and start punching it, because I hate the thought of going.

Good idea though! I wonder what's in my Bucket List.