Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite. Or waiting around for Friday night or waiting perhaps for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil or a better break or a string of pearls or a pair of pants or a wig with curls or another chance. Everyone is just waiting... Dr. Seuss
Have you ever had one of those moments when you feel like you're just waiting for your life to change... or start? When you feel you're just biding time? When you realize (painfully) that you're not doing what you want to be doing? That you're not doing what you should be doing.. and I don't mean laundry or dishes or cleaning the garage... I mean your life's work (if only you knew what your life's work was supposed to be).
I feel like that often. I feel like that today. I'm really scared I'm going to wait for that bus we call 'life' for so long that I'm going to get bored and fall asleep at the bus stop and it's going to come and no one's going to wake me up (because what does anyone else care if I miss the bus?) and I AM going to miss it and then I'm going to find out that the next bus broke down five miles away and then they'll just suspend service to my stop and I'll be stuck. Right here. Where. I. AM. Now.
That would not be good.
It's time to revise my 'Bucket List', I think. I had one long before the movie came out but I got busy with laundry and dishes and cleaning the garage (well, not really that last bit... mainly because I don't have a garage) and doing work that is SO not my life's work, and I tucked it away (you know, so I could read it later... on the bus). After I saw the film, I dug it out... but I tucked it away again (the bus was taking a long time and I was busy with my non-life's work again).
But today, TODAY I'm going to write a new Bucket List (and if you don't know what a bucket list is, it's a list of things you want to do before you kick the bucket). I am. And THEN I'll finish the laundry and the dishes and my non-life's work. Damn it.