I work with a woman I really like a lot. She's older than I am, but I can't tell how much so. She has this odd air of agelessness about her and gorgeous skin that makes it very difficult to tell just what decade she might have been born in (she also never, ever tells anyone her age). But her youngest turned 30 today, and I know she didn't have her kids right out of high school, so I'm guessing she has a few years on me. But that's neither here nor there, really.
As I say, I like her a lot. And she likes me. She's not the sort who has a lot of close friends or who confides in many people but she's said she feels comfortable talking to me. I say it's because, along with my 'retail face,' I also have a 'therapist face.' It makes people tell me stuff. Lots of stuff. Sometimes they tell me things I really oughtn't know. It's cool, though. I like finding out about people. But that's neither here nor there either.
Anyway, she told me today that she feels so comfortable with me because I always seem so 'together'.
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Me.
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'Together'.
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Um... er...
First, I snorted. As I do. Then I guffawed. Then I looked at her to see if she was lying or pulling my leg. She wasn't. Then I looked at her like she was certifiable. I waved a hand over my desk -- my desk that looks like, as my mother says, 'who flung it and ran' -- and I said, "See this? See this mess? This is what every area of my life looks and feels like. This, my friend, is so very much NOT 'together', unless by 'together', you mean, 'a friggin' disaster'."
She smiled and shook her head. "No. I think you're more together than you think you are."
As I say, I really like her.
But girlfriend? Is cray-cray.
3 comments:
My desk is a disaster and I know where everything is. An empty desk does not inspire me to do anything but stare at it. I think deep thinkers and creative people often do not see organization as productive time. Cleaning ones desk or making organization a focus steals time from thought. That report? Under that envelope, the fitness report and the dietary recommendations. Right there. If I filed it? Um. What did I title that? Where did I file that? Dang, where did that GO?!?
She sounds like a very nice person and wise as well, you are more together than you think you are dear Diane.
hugs
xoxoxo ♡
I don't know. You have good insight and perspective (which also makes you a good writer!) I mean, you could crumble and sit in the corner and cry or you could shed some tears, brush yourself off and keep pushing ahead. You're pretty together!
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